We've been extremely fortunate in being able to live and work together for the past several months, but recently we were forced into another bout of long distance love. Its something we've dealt with before, but this time it is infinitely harder. At the end of the day I want nothing more than to wind down and share my experiences with her. Last night we were able to video chat courtesy of her newly purchased MacBook Pro, which proved to be a very bittersweet event. It was more than amazing to be able to see her smile instead of having to imagine it... but I couldn't hold that smiling face in my hands. Watching her exhaustion catch up with her only made me want to cuddle even more. I won't exhaust you by waxing faux poetic about romance, but feel free to embrace someone close to you on my behalf...
Its weird to think about how she must feel working on that show. On one hand, it is an experience she has wanted to have for several years now, but at the same time it was something that was part of "us" for a good portion of our relationship. Now that I have "moved on" I can't imagine how empty it must feel. I know she is doing and will continue to do an amazing job performing as Grover, Count Von Count, Oscar, and Mr. Noodle, but I just wish I could share it with her. I could go on for hours talking about the irony and cruelty of living in the theatre world... but I'm sure it will all come out over the course of keeping this blog.
Suffice it to say - I miss my girlfriend something awful.
I love you, my love.
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